Friday, October 26, 2007

Why Are You So Sad.

"Death Of An Interior Decorator" by Death Cab for Cutie

You were the mother of three girls so sweet
Who stormed through your turnstile
And climbed to the street
But after conception your body lay cold
And withered through autumn and you found yourself old

Can you tell me why you have been so sad?
He took a lover on a faraway beach
While you arrange flowers and chose color schemes

Can you tell me why you have been so sad?
Can you tell me why you have been so sad?

The girls were all there
They traded their vows
The youngest one glared with furrowed brows
They tenderly kissed then cut the cake
The bride then tripped and broke the vase
The one you thought would spend the years
So perfectly placed below the mirror
Arriving late, you clean the debris
And walked into the angry sea

It felt just like falling in love again [x2]

Can you tell me why you have been so sad?
Can you tell me why you have been so...


"Sometimes its just harder to find the right thing...giving up would be so so easy. But dont. The angry sea wont do justice to anyone. Let Father work. Do. Move. Breathe. Change."

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Foreign Land

As i wander i see the greatness of my surroundings. I see brilliant lights and a darkened sea. I keep on wandering, wondering if there is a place for me. I know there is, but where, but how? With who? Anyone, someone? I want a tunnel to walk through. To look left or right would result in nothing, only forward it would take me. The choice would be made. Final. But there arent any tunnels here. Not for me, not for this. So i just see you. You. I walk to you. Your arms are enough for me now. I just want the Father. Our Father. To guide me when i walk. To take me to that place. And then maybe we can all pitch in and build that tunnel.

Psalm 71

Monday, October 22, 2007

An Answer

Why do things have to be a certain way? A big question for me lately. Well i know the answer to that. They dont. Things dont have to be a certain way. who ever said that one must do this or one must be that for things to be ok? whoever did, i dont know them. And quite frankly, whoever said that was a fool. Things dont have to be a certain way. Maybe life isnt designed for everyone to be happy. Actually i know this to be truth. Read Luke. Somewhere in there it talks about the cost of being a disciple. it also talks about Jesus coming to cause DIVISION. What do i mean by all of this? I guess this is just for the people who are single minded. People who must have things their way. I regret to say that i am one of those...and im changing too. Strides are being made. Just remember though, im not necessarily hear to please you. Dont get me wrong, I would love to please you but know that I will do things you dont like. I will believe things that i know to be true. Even if you think othewise. I am ME. I am Landon Shuman. Gods son. Your brother.

This is for no one but you. You all. Everyone. I hope everyone considers that question. Its a good question.

I hurt for sleep. Its time to search for unconscienceness. (im pretty sure that i spelled that wrong.)

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Thinking

It sucks because i cant. I have nothing going on. I feel like im on standby or something. Thinking doesnt come easily. Maybe its God given. Maybe. Maybe we are meant to stop thinking about things sometimes. I guess that makes sense. Im kind of going through withdrawals i think...so many things were taking up my thought process and now it seems like nothing is around to keep my mind moving. I need to do something that stimulates thought. What though? im going to go read the bible...or donald miller. or both. i think im trying to hard. yeah...definately trying to hard.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Our Things


What are these things? what do we have? we have everything we need. we have everything. What do we need...do we need these rooms? this entertainment? this food? these things? i beg to differ.... They make me fall. they make me hurt. they are sad. dead. lifeless things that take our lives and cut them short. sitting here. sedentary. fat. really, utterly dead. Dead.

Give me a sunset. Sunrise. Starlight. Ocean wave. A hill. A mountain. A tree. A Person. Give me a life to connect to. Give me a heart to soften. Give me a soul to touch. Give me a spirit to walk with. Give me THE Spirit. Ill use it. Ill go.

Got that off my chest...phew, I think ill go play some video games in a dark room with no one around.



Yeah.

Monday, October 8, 2007

What I(we) Must Do

Compassion: Deep awareness of the suffering of another coupled with the wish to relieve it.

Yeah. Why not? Isnt it so simple? Find something. If you care then you stop thinking about yourself all the time.

Take care of the poor.
Feed the homeless.
Give shelter to the shelterless.
Embrace your friends.
Love the enemy. Love the hated.
Mourn with those who mourn.
Laugh in times of laughter.
Dont quit on everyone else. Even if they quit on you.
Die for your fellow man.


Because Jesus did. There is no other reason i could give.

Now stated, then comes the follow through. Let not my selfishness get in the path.

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

Here Is...He Is

Bring it back around now. A smile may be hard to come by. Keep it coming by as much as you can. Real ones though, not fake. The One is Jesus. Thats reason enough. Make a noise, joyful. At least try. Just once. Even a try changes things. Move on, move forward. Do whats right. Break free. Fight clean. Breathe out. Conquer. HALLELUJAH.


Killing the old man.